I'm Leaving.

This time tomorrow I'll be on a plane.
Yes that's right folks I'm finally going on holiday!
Majorca - All Inclusive - 1 week - Relaxation....aaaaah yeaaah.
The wedding is done and dusted.
It. Was. Great. Filled with so much adreanaline/excitment/emotion and LOVE.
Seeing the way Abs and Scott were looking at each other as they said their vows brought tears to my eyes, which isnt easy to do (i'm not usually a 'tears of joy' sort of gal)
It truly was beautiful. We'll forget the fact that I tripped slightly on my way up to do my reading in the church haha.
I had to be the comic relief!
Anyway, peace out fools I should be back with a tan and a relaxed smile in a week

xx

It's been a hard days night, I've been working like a dog....

Its my needs assessment today, have to leave for Taunton in 15mins.
I've read what I have to expect but does what they've said really take 2hrs? Its just and extended chat about my illness and past experiences with it etc.
Eugh.
Today is gonna be so busy.
Go to this appt, get there for 11.30.
add 2hrs of extended talking on to that makes it 1.30
find somewhere to get some lunch...
it will then be about 2.00, then 1hr and a half to 2hrs later I'll be home.
Attempt to squeeze in a 20min kip....
then I have work till 7 (which is just after service) then I get picked up to get whisked to the church for the rehearsal for Saturday....and then home to continue tidying my room in preparation for my hol and the pre-wedding day night haha.
Oh....shattered is generally the word that comes to mind.
You felt tired just reading this right?

Trust me to be looking absolutely shit when there are at least 3 good looking guys on the same bus as me.

I need a break to rejuvenate, 6days till this is possible. OH hurry up!

ATTENTION ALL FEMALE CELEBRITIES!!

Please stop cutting your hair, otherwise when I'm finally allowed to after the wedding it's just gonna look like I'm following your trend even though I've been dying to do it for a while now!

http://www.sugarscape.com/main-topics/fashion-beauty/649618/drastic-new-hair-dos-robert-pattinson-cher-lloyd-vanessa-hudgens-p

Pixie Lott, new one to the bob gang!

Alice Lately...

My sister has asked me to do a reading at her wedding. But it's not small, and its got a few tongue twisters.
And its official now because I'm in the programme and its not long till the wedding. Nervous? Yes!

I've been watching Being Erica a lot lately. All about her conquering her regrets and having the chance to go back and do it all differently. Its what we all think about from time to time right?
I wish I'd never broken someones heart
I wish I'd never let someone break my heart
I wish I had outshined that other girl at that movie audition
I wish I had never got that drunk
I wish I had never given you that chance

All regrets, and I have a lot more to make and I can't wait, all a part of the journey of course.

Last one I promise....For now x

Yes

For Kirsty x

http://www.polyvore.com/%D0%BA%D0%BE%D0%BD%D1%82%D0%B0%D0%BA%D1%82%D0%B5_%D1%84%D0%BE%D1%82%D0%BE%D0%B3%D1%80%D0%B0%D1%84%D0%B8%D0%B8/thing?id=19331580

Events.

11days until Abbey and Scotts Wedding.
13days until Myself and Amy go on our 'Funny-moon'.
22days until My Big Hair chop.
30days until Results Day
32days until New Ink
60days until I move into my halls (hopefully)
69days until My course starts (hopefully)
72days until My 20th







wow.

When I grow up!

What the hell is with moody/bitter Old people?
Yes old man, who was creepily watching me and then shouting out his bedroom window at me to everso annoyingly to remind me that I have to take my dogs poo with me. Urmm....I KNOW! Thank you neighbourhood watch, you encourage lonely aggravating old men to feel they have the power to drain on my day.
I deal with old people all day everyday thanks to my job but mostly I dont mind them because you can have a little joke and chat with them as you go along. But there are always the crabby ones and you think to yourself, why?
Why do you have to be like that you silly old person. We're not all ASBO ridden youths out to disrespect you. Also if I have the common decency to use my manners then so should you. You're not above it just because you've been on this earth longer than me. Here's an idea, Grow up!

Family guy is always poignant for me.

This is how we do it.

I love these girls too damn much x

Rite of Passage.

Hen do. Fantastic. Amazing. Success.
Last night was great, not to beat mine or my sisters own drum but we did such an awesome job.
My one goal was for my sister to have a smile on her face all evening, and she did.
From the meal at the Galley, with all the gift bags, blonde jokes and willy straws, to the Pink Party Bus, including Karaoke and lots of offkey singing and shaky dancing. We were then dropped in town where we hit Abbs fave places in Weytown. She was even pulled on stage by a supposed famous group of rappers, they sang that 'Head, shoulders, knees and toes, let me see you get down low' song.
Oh and the infamous Naughty Scavenger hunt.

Ahhhh good night indeed!

I'll upload the video of us three sisters singing to eachother on the Pink Party Bus...just for giggles.
I'm giving you permission to laugh at my very mini drum solo towards the end :P

Sometimes I feel like there's a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean. The moon tonight, there's a circle around it. Sign of trouble not far behind. I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night, wanting. But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing... I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen. I don't know. Maybe I had my happiness. I don't want to believe it but, there is no man, Gilly. Only that moon.

Practical Magic

I miss us.

I miss being close, dangerously close.
Or do I.
Perhaps it was too dangerous, bad roads and broken hearts. Everyone has done this, been there, considered more but didnt want to shatter everything in the event of a bad aftermath.
Just a taste? No, no. Just dont.
Move on. You're dreams aren't real and you can't have it your way or all ways for that matter.

I miss us.

She's a maneater.

Just because you love the attention doesnt mean you can play and tease and flirt with all boys to your hearts content. Don't be a bitch, it's not fair and you know it.

I adore old photos.

Strange to think your parents had a life before you and were children once also.

I want to cut my hair now!

man am I stressed :(

Just found out that my room rent total for the first year in halls is 300 more than my maintenance loan. And I  dont qualify for a maintenance grant cause my stupid brother and Anna live in my house too and have incomes on top on my parents, stupid household income rule. ANNND even if I do get a DSA it may not even be paid to me!
How on earth am I supposed to eat or budget when there is no budget left!
Oh boy!
My head hurts :(
It's all I can think about even though its 7days till Abbeys Hen do, 3weeks until the wedding and 3weeks and 1day till I catch a break in the sun (fingers crossed)

actually I'll look at holidays now.....please help.

LOL! please watch it all.

Why cant growing up be easy.

Post came today. And more stress followed.
Portsouth Universities student housing allocation letter. I was super psyched. But then came the stress.
Having to pay the deposit to secure a place in halls within the next 10days.
Guess its borrowing time...
I hate borrowing money off of anyone. Especially my parents. They already do so much so why should I have anymore off them. They're probs gonna have to help me enough as it is with Uni costs, but when I havent even started yet, it's a bit of a piss-take.

After all the effort I'm putting in around this Uni I hope I get in. Otherwise I am gonna go loopy with trying to re-sort it all into another one.

I do have a little money at the moment but forgive me for still wanting to go on a last minute holiday after the wedding. Last time I was on holiday you couldnt call it that because I was looking after younger students in Italy.

I just require a hot destination, a pool, a cocktail, and somewhere to read my course books ha.

Taaaa.

To full-fringe OR not full-fringe

That is the question...

                                                                Exhibit A - with

OR

Exhibit B - without

I only ask because I wanna look super fine in Emma's dress on Abbs's hen do.

Hmm, decisions decisions.

Tee minus 12 days till my sisters Hen do.

Me and Amy are gonna be driven insane by it. Trying to make sure its fun and perfect for Abbey. That's all that matters, that she has a good night.

ALSO
got to catch some sun the other day, was nice. But who knew being in the sun all day could be so knackering haha.

Managed to snap a nice pic of me and the pooch...

Such a brilliant dog, couldnt imagine a human bouncing back the way he is.

Going to make a conscious effort on my appearance tomorrow.
After being told I looked like someone who takes no pride in her appearence I am certainly going to take pride in mine.
Hair and make up pleaaaase go well.

Better start with the beauty sleep, niiight x

L.O.V.E, dance to the beat of my drum.

He's home!

I didnt want to put anything on here because it's been a shakey few days but my big pup is home after having major surgery yesterday.

He is beautiful and now effectively looks like he has a zipper on his tummy along side a bad shave job.

Poor animal didnt know what was happening to him, but is now missing 5 centimeteres of his intestines that was attached to a huge tumour.

He's not out of the danger zone yet as the next few days are crucial to his recovery and future.

We also have the hard family decision of finding out if the thing was malignant or benign.

It has been a rough few days crying my eyes out. I had lashed out a little, mood swings if you will.

I'm sorry to anyone I offended or pissed off.

I can't manage a heart ache atm.

Watch this space. I love him so much, silly animal.