More than a soft spot.

Urrr No.

Was told today by an old bloke at work that I was the spitting image of this little lady....

.....Charlie Brooks. Don't really see it myself?

2 more sleeps.

Not that I'm sleeping at the moment, far too much on my mind.
Another thing added to the list, Forbidden Fruit issue again.
Hopefully after Christmas break I can find out for sure what is actually going on in that situation.
I have 2 more presents to buy... a birthday one and a christmas one.
Well it just wouldn't be xmas without that last minute panic!

Eurgh, I hate how UN-photogenic I can be.

It's all relative.

Nocturnal Fascination.

Kim jong il...re-incarnated?

Buy me this and I will love you forever.

Poor Levi.

Someone is getting a snip tomorrow, poor puppy x

Boo Today.

I hate today already.

1. it's raining
2. I slept shiiiit.
3. I broke my favourite mug of 6/7years.
4. I have dentist today - I predict bad things.
5. Student Portal is down so I can't find out my grade for my first essay.

Things better pick up before seeing my friends tonight.

Stupid Girl.

All dressed up with no where to go.
Resorting to hot chocolate and Jingle all the way.
Sent a text I wish I hadn't. Regrets, regrets.
Home tomorrow.

After Eights.

Definitely the best way to eat these. Who says you shouldn't play with your food.

Highly recommended you should!

University Girls.

We don't do christmas conventionally. Roast Dinner....ho ho no....Mexican Night haha.

Only bad point was not being able to drink with Meera on her last night of 2011 in Pompey.

Home on friday for a works meal....this should be interesting! xo

Christmas Wishes.

High waisted skinnies OR clothes voucher to get these beauts.

Pink Converse Allstars.

Wintergirls. I need a literary distraction.

Gym Membership....So money.

And a few other things buuuut we won't mention those.



Re-invention coming 2012.

ANTM allstar.....Modelland

I want this book, I need more fictional literature in my life.

Fits 'Who I am' below.

Who I am.

pretending to be myself again

acting as if I was who I am

wearing the clothes that I always wear

and doing the usual thing to my hair

pretending to be myself again

imitating the person I’ve always been

legally changing my name to my name

and making believe I’m exactly the same

a bunny in a bunny suit

tiger in a tiger mask

who in the world do you think that I am

I suppose it depends on who you ask

of all the disguises I’ve ever worn

I flatter myself in the most sincere form

still I’m kept at a distance by friends

for just pretending to be myself again

a bunny in a bunny suit

vampire with plastic teeth

who in the world do I think that I am

I guess it depends on who I believe

Larry but I like it.

Starting to become a tad worried for my social well being.
I enjoy my own company too much. I dont even mind being confined to my own room. I read, I surf the web, I watch films, I listen to music, I shop, I tidy, I play around with make up, I drink too much coffee.
If I wonder whats going on else where I ring my mum or sisters.
I can socialize when I need to but other than that I could happily stay in doors for a long time ha.
Sometimes its nice just being alone there plenty of time to put on that smiling face for others another day.

Dreaaaaam.

Sometimes I wish I could control my dreams. Like when I was younger.
Its so frustrating when you either wake incontrollably in the middle of a good dream; curious of how your mind would end it, if there is such a thing as an end to a dream...Or you wake up after your slumber wishing you hadnt had that dream because in the waking hours we can surpress our feelings or emotions but once in REM we end up creating and desiring things we conciously know won't/shouldn't/can't happen.

Poke and Prod.

F.m.l.
Went home for a few days to get some relaxation but all I got was aggro.
Got my depo. Sore bum.
Went to get my mould fitted for a new retainer. Gagged and choked.
Went to get my toe sorted out. Got antibiotics which are making me nauseous.
annnnd come back with a bug.
The universe just wants me to whinge.

N.B decided to back all the way off from the Forbidden Fruit situation. Too much drama, don't need that before christmas.

Confusion.

When we were 15 in situations such as these it was our prerogative to behave childishly and think only of our own wants and needs. But being 20 and once again in this situation is bloody difficult. You have to consider the reprocussions and others feelings aswell. Forbidden fruit.