Alert the Residential homes.

Naaaah I'm just kidding about all that 'god I'm so old' stuff. I'm not so concerned with my age now. (Or for now anyway haha)
It is after all just a number.
I'm still going to have my tantrums but I'm also feeling more grown up, which is weird because I've always felt quite mature for my age and have been told so by quite a lot of people.
I'll try to make the most of my time still as a teenager but at the end of the day who ever does truely grow up?
I also find it funny that my tipsy parents were the ones trying to get me drunk last night haha who'd of thought it :P
I shall be sending out thank you cards to all who deserve them but really I'm just sooooo looking forward to my Barbie Birthday night on Saturday :)

Have yet to get my wig or my stretchy shiny pink leggings back. I'm bringing trashy back ;)

Hold on to your hats girls 'cause the night's going to begin with Pink Panty Pull downs. And my sisters aren't ones for making weak drinks!

1 more sleep.

Aaaaaaah not long now.
Tonights treat. Morrisons The Best Maple Fudge. Awww yeeeaaah :)
It is amazing. If you havent tried it you should.
And what did I do today...My sister and I went halves on finishing off my Lily tattoo on my foot.
Its so perdy, was a tad more painful this time but I have a high pain threshold.
So much so that the tattoo artist kept asking if i wasn't dead 'cause I wasnt making any noises or scrunching my face up :)

Peace out peeps. Next time we meet I'll be old.

2days.

Tesco. Legends. Geniuses.

Whom ever it was who came up the the idea of Lasagne Sandwiches should be given a nobel award!

Strolling across them today made my day sadly enough haha.
Well something had to, found out I cannot get my tattoo done on my birthday, sad times.
Which means I'm most likely going to have to get it done tomorrow :O
And then straight onto work so no rest for my foot :S

Right I best leave, I have a snickers staring at me thats begging to be eaten :)

3 Days.

I know I said I wasn't going to purchase anything in primark but I found the most perfect top in there for my Barbie Bash coming up. It's sooo trashy haha.
I know that sounds peculiar but that's the purpose of my get together, not to be glamorous but to have fun looking like plastic idiots :)
Also I'm soooo looking forward to  my actual birthday on Wednesday. Work in the morning come home to chill out, open some cards, meet my sisters after they've finished school, go add to my tattoo, go for a starbucks go home to refresh, get glammed up and then off to the nook for nibbles and cocktails with my fam :)
What a day that's going to be.

Primani. Primarche...no its Primark.

I must resist spending tomorrow.
This will be a difficult task as I will be going to Primark :O
I got paid today and its going to be bad enough parting with my money tomorrow night when I hit the tiles. (Very necessary I decided)
Ditch the doldrums and all that jazz.
I already know what I'm gonna wear tomorrow night so that's no excuse to spend. Maybe just stuff for my Barbie Birthday outing? :P
I'll keep you posted..
xoxo

Love is Hard.

Boy you said it James Morrison.

It is hard and difficult and comlicated.

But can it be that complex when its accessible to everyone?

In my opinion it's a matter of common interests.
Having the ability to make some one else smile and pause on your eyes, a mutual moment.

Obviously you need intial attraction. It's not superficial, it's just natural.

I'm not talking about your dream or fantasy partner appearing to you and you live happily ever after, nothing/no one is that perfect. Speaking from experience.
Is it fair that everyone should experience it, or is it just false imitations for those who just play with it.

Live your sad, lonely lives.

Because believe me one day you shall soon discover you are lonely when you jump from one persons lips to another. I hope you do because you don't deserve love until you accept that.

Happiness seems to be Loneliness.

Respectfully I request loneliness, just for a little while anyway.
Things come to their heads, build to a climax. I was foolish to think this would miss me.
I've got pieces to fit back together and I'm the only one who can make myself happy again.
And I will.
As I keep saying, its all a case of going through a process. Waiting for time to pass to heal all wounds.
I won't be going out much if I can avoid it.
Pick yourself up and get back up again.
Oh roll on uni and its different places... and people.

September Slump.

So it't that time of year again, I thought I could put it off but its inevitable.
With so much to look forward to this year I thought I could avoid it all together.
But no, its my September Slump.
It happened last year and was the cause of my decision to not apply to Uni.
Things just bog you down. You feel consumed by the lack of time to complete everything. You wonder if the things your are putting all your energies into are worth while at all. You feel doubt in all aspects of your life but most inportantly in youself. And you question all your decisions past, present and future.

I am optimistic that I can achieve what needs to be done this year, but the question is enjoyment?
Damn you September, hopefully my pending birthday will be my revivement........please.

Ooo I'm SuperGirl.

So to fill you in...
School has messed me around and made a chain reaction of me in turn messing my job around.
Holding off from telling them if I can work full time to then not knowing if I can because of timetable confusions.
Today was the resolving of it all when I finally got 2 timetables to choose from, which I then took to work to see which one they thought would be more appropriate.
I breathed a sigh of relief to know everything was sorted.
Now this year will consist of:
Working practically full time (apart from Tuesdays)
Sixth form on Tuesdays and Thursdays
Coursework in the evenings
Reading before bed and during Bus rides
Going out when I can
Clearing out my old room
Visiting Uni friends
Joining the Gym
Saving for a Summer Holiday :)
Auditioning for School Play?
Learning to Drive?

Oh what a year, stay tuned folks for a mental meltdown haha.

22days and counting...

Well my birthday is pending.
So I am soon to be a 19year old.
Last year of Teenagehood.
After that I can no longer blame my childish nature on just being a teenager.
I'll have to fully take responsibility for my immature actions and mood swings.
I am the old lady of Budmouth Sixth form.
The year 12's/13's are already on top knotch fashion parades through the halls. I might as well just get my zimmer frame out now! Haha

Yes I'm over dramatic but what can I say....I'm a teenager.

First of the Great 19yearolds.

1st of September rolled round quick didnt it!
Kirsty and Josh; the first members of club 19 and had a pretty good night to show for it.
This including drunken chants, disco dancing on staircases, boob jokes, bad kareoke and FAZZ NEARLY DIED IN DUSK! haha dramatic barmaids.
I don't know how the night ended, I wished I had a little bit of surfside in me, but there's all the time in the world to eat that junk.
Let me know guys, I await the photos and videos of old men singing Viva las vegas :)