Teenage Frustrations.
I guess I just need reassurance that I'm not the only one.
After having a Johnson's Bedtime Bath I realised how much maintenance my body requires now. I'm only 19 for crying out loud and already I need oil for tonnes of stretch marks that are ever growing. I need anti wrinkle night cream for my overly expressive forehead but that just wouldn't be enough. No I also have to be reminded that I still am a teenager and need spot cream for the rest of my face. Oh the stress of it all. Each one of tese problems are easy to tackle but when you put it all together you find yourself having a mini mental breakdown. That of which also isn't helpful as stress creates the spots. Vicious bitch of a cycle. Where are the simple days where the hardest thing you had to do was tie your shoelaces.
I do have one thing off my mind now and that is University interviews.
Although this last one I can't brag about. Purely because I won't find out if I have a place or not for another 2-4weeks. Grrrr-eat.
I didn't quite know what to make of it all at the beginning. The girls that attended seemed to be all stand offish, from me that is. Quite a lot of them had banded together before the welcome talk. Maybe it was the jean MC Hammer imitation pants I had on?
But....as the day progressed and we got down to devising in smaller groups I actually got to meet some really nice girls. (I hope I wasn't to pushy) So all was good in the end although my parents said they got the impression I wasn't happy. I think they misread my 'I'm tired lets go home' face. It had been a long day. And without sounding like an 80year old the cold muggy weather had done my knees in. That's a part of the terms and conditions that come with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. For all you out there who also have this pain in the ass illness when all you want is to be the energetic person you long to be 24/7, I FEEL YOUR PAIN.
Sleep.
Do not talk to me about sleep.
What is it?
It is a stranger to me at the moment.
Is it the change in the weather? Is it stress related? Am I not burning off every inch of energy in the day time required to make you sleep?
No answers? Me either. Just to be able to drop off and not wake until my alarm goes off would be heaven.
Literally!
I kicked butt at the power hour on ladies night at the gym the other evening and would you think that would tucker me out? Apparently not.
Ok I think I'm done with the sleep rant.
Only a smallish one this time.
But more to follow.....