Maybe one day you might read this, I dont know, but I hope you do. And not take it the wrong way or feel hurt from it. It's just my intepretation.
I feel let down a little.
I called you my best friend and we confided a lot into each other in 2010. Actually, we were really inseparable. Texting most days, meetings, talking online.
I thought I had helped you when everyone else let you down. And in turn you listened to my crap too, occasionally.
I suppose it's like a feeling of being a rag doll, being picked up and put down when it suits.
I was flavour of the month but maybe I wasnt giving you what you wanted, is that why it deteriorated?
I'm not trying to offend, far from it as I'm doing this because I care.
But it was all so sudden and now feels like everyone gets time and effort but I dont.
I always said I was selfish. Maybe you finally realised I am.
Feels like a retrograde, we've walked backwards, too far this time.
I miss it, but maybe I gave too much but not enough all in the same moments.
Cheddar x