Some one please have a fancy do so I can sport this up do x
Saturday, 26 November 2011
Thinking Caps on.
I muuuust complete this essay this weekend. Well today would be nice. ha, I'll keep you posted blogosphere. This is my attempt at motivation.
250/1000.
250/1000.
Friday, 25 November 2011
Thursday, 24 November 2011
Respect.
I'm at a bit of a loss atm.
This project as fun as it is is draining the life out of me. I'm not sleeping properly at night due to the fact that when I come in from the everyday 9-5 of this project I just crash on my bed uncontrollably. So when I do try to sleep at night and the fire alarm goes off and there are idiots in the lifts that are preventing me from getting me back to bed, I will get wound up and not get back to sleep till gone 5am. No respect.
So moving on. The lads. In the beginning I believed I was so lucky to have two fun and easy going lads. But it's got to the stage now where I'm starting to loose respect for them as they blantantly have no respect for me at all.
I have been informing them for a little while that I had a tutor led project coming up that was only 2weeks but it was gonna be really full on so I was gonna be tired etc (hint hint). And yet today I come home to blaring/banging music. It was relentless..... I tried to sleep away the noise which worked for a little while but I awoke with a headache. The music continued shaking my room and I heard them shout to each other..'Is alice in?...I dunno I havent seen her!' Come and find out for yourself!!! Or even a text would be nice. I get sick of having to ask for the music to be turned down but obv they had completely forgotten what I had said about being tired and needing rest to do well in the project. So once the music subsided and it sounded quiet enough for me to leave my room I went to the kitchen to make dinner. Curiously I opened the fridge to see if the lads had brought milk like me and Claire had asked, as we had brought plenty of milk recently and they drank it without even thinking of thanking us. Yes there was plenty of milk in the fridge....with their names written on it.
Once again another example of the lads eavesdropping on our conversations and instead of being men and coming to us face to face they went behind our backs to be snide.
I had to vent sorry....
This project as fun as it is is draining the life out of me. I'm not sleeping properly at night due to the fact that when I come in from the everyday 9-5 of this project I just crash on my bed uncontrollably. So when I do try to sleep at night and the fire alarm goes off and there are idiots in the lifts that are preventing me from getting me back to bed, I will get wound up and not get back to sleep till gone 5am. No respect.
So moving on. The lads. In the beginning I believed I was so lucky to have two fun and easy going lads. But it's got to the stage now where I'm starting to loose respect for them as they blantantly have no respect for me at all.
I have been informing them for a little while that I had a tutor led project coming up that was only 2weeks but it was gonna be really full on so I was gonna be tired etc (hint hint). And yet today I come home to blaring/banging music. It was relentless..... I tried to sleep away the noise which worked for a little while but I awoke with a headache. The music continued shaking my room and I heard them shout to each other..'Is alice in?...I dunno I havent seen her!' Come and find out for yourself!!! Or even a text would be nice. I get sick of having to ask for the music to be turned down but obv they had completely forgotten what I had said about being tired and needing rest to do well in the project. So once the music subsided and it sounded quiet enough for me to leave my room I went to the kitchen to make dinner. Curiously I opened the fridge to see if the lads had brought milk like me and Claire had asked, as we had brought plenty of milk recently and they drank it without even thinking of thanking us. Yes there was plenty of milk in the fridge....with their names written on it.
Once again another example of the lads eavesdropping on our conversations and instead of being men and coming to us face to face they went behind our backs to be snide.
I had to vent sorry....
Monday, 21 November 2011
Sunday, 20 November 2011
I digress.
I'm still deviating away from my essay. murrrrr.
On the plus side I just had a epiphany of a great present for one of my sisters hehe. It's just to find it in this country ha.
Also this time of year is all about the pretty things....
On the plus side I just had a epiphany of a great present for one of my sisters hehe. It's just to find it in this country ha.
Thursday, 17 November 2011
Theatre!!!
It's been a while but I'm finally am going to see some live theatre tonight. Classic.
Romeo and Juliet, performed by and amateur company but still I've never seen it live before.
Eeeeep things on the up and up happiness wise, also due to the fact Breaking Dawn is tomorrow.
Hopefully can be projected into my essay writing soon. HA
Romeo and Juliet, performed by and amateur company but still I've never seen it live before.
Eeeeep things on the up and up happiness wise, also due to the fact Breaking Dawn is tomorrow.
Hopefully can be projected into my essay writing soon. HA
Wednesday, 16 November 2011
Highs and Lows.
It's quite hilarious how my room, the organised chaos that it is, is following suit with my brain at the moment.
Some say a clean room is the way to a clean mind. But right now I can't compartmentalise everything, they all mesh in to one.
- We have the clutter of shoes facing all different directions, not neccessarily matching....not knowing where they are going.
- Then my Ironing board next to my wardrobe (you must know that my ironing board only stands just above the ankle) is beginning to be a book shelf for the books I need for my essay....ignoring it at them moment, it's down on my list as I need to not stress for now.
- We also have my cluttered desk, a few levels up on priority, consumed with post-it notes, coloured pencils, open make up case, hair grips, coffee mug, wires, lecture recorder, mirror, plugs, photo frame, nail varnish, printer and laptop and tv, ha.....all focal points in different rights.
- Next to desk is the messy overflowing bin...should be taken out but keeps getting forgotten amongst the madness of the rest of the room and uni life etc.
Some say a clean room is the way to a clean mind. But right now I can't compartmentalise everything, they all mesh in to one.
Sunday, 13 November 2011
It's Just Emotions.
Very emotionally gruelling time.
Tearful. Too much.
Mum cries, I cry. I think about Charley and I well up.
My skin is shit atm. This essay is going no where.
BLEURGGGHHH!
Tearful. Too much.
Mum cries, I cry. I think about Charley and I well up.
My skin is shit atm. This essay is going no where.
BLEURGGGHHH!
Friday, 11 November 2011
200th POST!
Seems like a good and yet geeky time to mention how excited I am about the pending Twilight film.
Breaking Dawn ♥
Buttt just to prove I'm not as serious about it as I make out (i.e shouting in the cinema when the film is far too incorrect ha! yeah that was me) I am providing you with the eclipse parody. I LOLed. Long but worth the watch if you need a giggle.....
Breaking Dawn ♥
Buttt just to prove I'm not as serious about it as I make out (i.e shouting in the cinema when the film is far too incorrect ha! yeah that was me) I am providing you with the eclipse parody. I LOLed. Long but worth the watch if you need a giggle.....
All the characters are pretty well matched apart from Alice's character who, omg I'm sorry if she ever saw this, is BUTTERS!
Busy Bee.
And it is essay writing time for the resident of 6-8-4......me.
It's just beginning it.
I'm also prepared to do something I have never done before. Make a detailed plan.
It's been a while since I wrote an academic essay, I feel a tad rusty. Not that it was ever a great talent of mine.
But here I sit incapable of beginning and feeling a strong headache coming on to the point of nausea.
It's daunting.
I think because of the sheer weight and speed that is gathering fast at the moment and swallowing me up. This essay is due 29th Nov which is also when I have to go see the Drama&English students performance. Not to mention overlapping this is the Tutor led project with which we have 2weeks to create, rehearse and perform. So that finishes on the 2nd Dec then the following drama student performances are on the 9th and the 15th. From these we must produce a critical analysis review to be handed in the day after we get back from Xmas. But the day before that we must hand in another academic essay.
Annnd I'm waitressing through Xmas, by my own doing, but it has to be done to earn some dosh!
Blahblahablahabkabkahablah. Yeaaah University wooo!
It's just beginning it.
I'm also prepared to do something I have never done before. Make a detailed plan.
It's been a while since I wrote an academic essay, I feel a tad rusty. Not that it was ever a great talent of mine.
But here I sit incapable of beginning and feeling a strong headache coming on to the point of nausea.
It's daunting.
I think because of the sheer weight and speed that is gathering fast at the moment and swallowing me up. This essay is due 29th Nov which is also when I have to go see the Drama&English students performance. Not to mention overlapping this is the Tutor led project with which we have 2weeks to create, rehearse and perform. So that finishes on the 2nd Dec then the following drama student performances are on the 9th and the 15th. From these we must produce a critical analysis review to be handed in the day after we get back from Xmas. But the day before that we must hand in another academic essay.
Annnd I'm waitressing through Xmas, by my own doing, but it has to be done to earn some dosh!
Blahblahablahabkabkahablah. Yeaaah University wooo!
Wednesday, 9 November 2011
Exciting Prospects.
I know they say never to wish your time away but I'd much rather skip to next year when I'm in a house with Claire and the girls from the flat across. We were having a laugh this evening talking about pets and came to the conclusion we should have pretty fish named after us in our living room hehe.
I guess this apprehension may have come from the fact that our current male flat mates are taking liberties and leaving cleaning the communal kitchen area to Claire and I.
We have a flaming inspection tomorrow and they really didnt give a shit.
I dont give a crap how messy my room is because only I have to dwell there but the kitchen is somewhere we all have to use and store food! I dont wanna get ill because someone left dirt and messy plates everywhere!
Oh men!
Truely cant live with them cant live without them.
I guess this apprehension may have come from the fact that our current male flat mates are taking liberties and leaving cleaning the communal kitchen area to Claire and I.
We have a flaming inspection tomorrow and they really didnt give a shit.
I dont give a crap how messy my room is because only I have to dwell there but the kitchen is somewhere we all have to use and store food! I dont wanna get ill because someone left dirt and messy plates everywhere!
Oh men!
Truely cant live with them cant live without them.
Tuesday, 8 November 2011
Recover?
I was a little insulted today when the line 'when you recover from your illness' came out of the disability officers mouth. Obviously hasn't got a clue what Chronic Fatigue is...
Right I've had enough of bitching and moaning about my illness, my best friend said I was being a matyr the other day. And I was but it's hard not to be when you're still settling the grounds for strong friendships with people you've only known for a couple of months.
I can't wait to go home at christmas... I think it's the excitement of christmas itself and getting all my family all in one house being silly together. It seems so close and yet so far away. I have an essay and performance project to complete before then. I havent started getting pressies yet but I feel like I should be. Slowly and steadily gathering them so I dont squander my food shopping budget.
Although my mum and sis convinced me to treat myself the other day and I ended up purchasing these beauties.....
Right I've had enough of bitching and moaning about my illness, my best friend said I was being a matyr the other day. And I was but it's hard not to be when you're still settling the grounds for strong friendships with people you've only known for a couple of months.
I can't wait to go home at christmas... I think it's the excitement of christmas itself and getting all my family all in one house being silly together. It seems so close and yet so far away. I have an essay and performance project to complete before then. I havent started getting pressies yet but I feel like I should be. Slowly and steadily gathering them so I dont squander my food shopping budget.
Although my mum and sis convinced me to treat myself the other day and I ended up purchasing these beauties.....
ahhhhh shoessss :)
Friday, 4 November 2011
*Tutor led project
We're just about to begin out tutor led project and I chose and got accepted into the Interdisciplinary Theatre Group. Our stimulus is Romeo and Juliet, and I know you're probably snoring from the lack of creativity buuuut it's not Shakespeares rendition....it's Baz Luhrmanns.
Annnnnd being that it's Interdis means incorporating projection and multi levels of technology to our performance using the film etc! This may not excite those who do not care but even if you just love that film you can appreciate the great fun and anticipation that comes with this project!
Annnnnd being that it's Interdis means incorporating projection and multi levels of technology to our performance using the film etc! This may not excite those who do not care but even if you just love that film you can appreciate the great fun and anticipation that comes with this project!
Thinking Cap.
I'm only just realising how much time I have on my hands at the moment. A lot of time to think.
(Although this may all change once the 'tutor led project'* starts :S)
I feel at the moment I'm just pretending to be an adult. But will I ever feel like an 'adult' or will I forever feel like I'm 16. What does that even mean...Adult?
Dictionary.com says....
(Although this may all change once the 'tutor led project'* starts :S)
I feel at the moment I'm just pretending to be an adult. But will I ever feel like an 'adult' or will I forever feel like I'm 16. What does that even mean...Adult?
Dictionary.com says....
ʌlt
adjective
2.
of, pertaining to, or befitting adults.
3.
intended for adults; not suitable for children: adult entertainment.
noun
4.
a person who is fully grown or developed or of age.
5.
a full-grown animal or plant.
6.
a person who has attained the age of maturity as specified by law.
Really?
My perception of it just a list of chores/ activities we watched our parents do for us for years. Some of us maybe became more independent sooner rather than later.
I cook, I clean, I do my own washing, I do my own ironing, I do my own washing up, I do my own hoovering, I change my own bedding, I organise my time (or not), I sort out my finances, I fight my own battles and fight for my own lonely corner.
Sounds stupid went I put it into perspective like that. Why should it be so hard? It shouldn't, should it?
I'm only just learning to be an adult, I'm 20 but I'm just not quite there yet.
Thursday, 3 November 2011
Lost and Found.
Wednesday, 2 November 2011
Frustration.
My Chronic Fatigue is beginning to take over my life again.
I keep sitting down on my bed and the next thing I know I'm waking up 2-3hrs later.
Missed a few seminars because of this and the Uni is already concerned. Whoops.
It's uncontrollable.
I have a meeting with a disability officer soon so hopefully I can sort it out, if not I'm screwed.
I also keep missing, phonecalls, texts, visits.
Or if I know that I need a nap I'll go home and make up some lame excuse to my drama mates.
So perhaps its my fault I'm not that close with them. I never go to lunch with them between lectures so I miss out on the 'bonding' so to speak.
Well perhaps I'll just have to pop pro plus for now until there's some form of regularity and pattern to follow so my illness can pace itself.
It's a vicious cycle.
One that needs to be broken if I'm to have any chance of surviving here and staying at Uni.
'Sorry for myself' rant over.
I keep sitting down on my bed and the next thing I know I'm waking up 2-3hrs later.
Missed a few seminars because of this and the Uni is already concerned. Whoops.
It's uncontrollable.
I have a meeting with a disability officer soon so hopefully I can sort it out, if not I'm screwed.
I also keep missing, phonecalls, texts, visits.
Or if I know that I need a nap I'll go home and make up some lame excuse to my drama mates.
So perhaps its my fault I'm not that close with them. I never go to lunch with them between lectures so I miss out on the 'bonding' so to speak.
Well perhaps I'll just have to pop pro plus for now until there's some form of regularity and pattern to follow so my illness can pace itself.
It's a vicious cycle.
One that needs to be broken if I'm to have any chance of surviving here and staying at Uni.
'Sorry for myself' rant over.
Trick or Treat.
Befiore shot looking disgusting in prep to paint.
(Only time I'll ever let you guys see me with hair like this and no make up!)
Annnnd after as a red devil! Excessive perhaps but I felt it was neccessary haha.
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